Bad Timing

So I am not going to be going to Washington DC even though I had already purchased the plane tickets. I feel pretty bad because the only reason I was going was to see a childhood friend that I haven’t seen for 13 years. But then, a myriad of intestinal parasites which induced all of…

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Lost in a Fantasy

It makes my laugh when I get a message from my best friend, Alaina, asking me if I’m ever going to make a post on here this week. I’ll be honest, sometimes I don’t even know what to write and a lot of the times I don’t even realize how much time has passed or…

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Here We Go Again

Well my sister is moved out. And she is to get the rest of her stuff on Saturday which is all of two boxes she didn’t get today for some reason (I guess because they wouldn’t fit in her car). It might just be the restorative yoga that I just got out of or the…

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Stress

So remember how I told you that my sister was living with me? Well today, after constantly warning her ever since she moved in, I had to kick her out. And she had the audacity to tell me that her friends were going to come over to my house and help her get her stuff.…

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Joy in Simplicity

My husband is gone for an entire week for military training and just like every time he’s gone, I am a giant ball of anxiety. I never realize just how much he means to me until he’s gone and I’m stuck at home “alone” [I’m not really alone since my sister, 2 dogs, and 3…

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School & Mental Health

Well, I made a positive mental health decision today by dropping out of the [very] condensed Summer Semester. What started it is that I started looking over the assignments that I would need to be doing for next week (when classes were set to start) and quickly realized that I would have to read anywhere…

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Time

Well, it looks like I never followed up about whether or not I liked using BetterHelp for counseling or not. And the short answer is “No, I do not like it”. Although, I think that the concept is good, I did not personally enjoy my session with my counselor. It seemed way too informal to…

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entitled

It’s been about 4 days without drugs or alcohol. I had a brief 1 day relapsed where I took some anxiety medication and had a glass of wine while I took a bubble bath but now I am completely out of my “medication” which makes it easier for me to not use it (because I…

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decisions

I have made the conscious decision to stop drinking all alcohol and to stop abusing all medications, even OTC medications. I have been spiraling and spiraling and the worst just keeps making the worst, worse. I used to not have so much anxiety until I started abusing my anxiety medications in an attempt to not…

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Joy & Interests

When I was a young teenager (literally around 12/13) I got involved in a deep and ardent love affair. With books. And fearing that this is going to be a lame blog post, I must also mention that my Dad is really the one who introduced me to reading as a hobby. I still remember…

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