Tag: alcohol

entitled

It’s been about 4 days without drugs or alcohol. I had a brief 1 day relapsed where I took some anxiety medication and had a glass of wine while I took a bubble bath but now I am completely out of my “medication” which makes it easier for me to not use it (because I don’t have any) and alcohol has really been tasting … Read More entitled

back out

So I did it. I went three days without abusing medications or alcohol and then I wasn’t okay. My husband is leaving for military training for about a week and I usually am not nervous or afraid for him to go but I am this time around for some reason. I’ve had three high potent drinks tonight and some Benedryl, and Ativan. I feel … Read More back out

not feeling well

I am not feeling well today. I was fine before lunch but then I ate lunch and now I do not feel good. I am wondering if it is because I am coming off of my “drugs” or because I just happen to be ovulating today. My stomach hurts, I feel dizzy and lightheaded and just an all-around feeling of “unwellness”. I am at … Read More not feeling well

decisions

I have made the conscious decision to stop drinking all alcohol and to stop abusing all medications, even OTC medications. I have been spiraling and spiraling and the worst just keeps making the worst, worse. I used to not have so much anxiety until I started abusing my anxiety medications in an attempt to not feel any emotions. Then I started having anxiety attacks … Read More decisions

suburban life

It’s a typical suburban life today. I cleaned the house, including the basement, did laundry and my husband went outside and mowed/ weed-eated the yard. Our plants are watered and now Josh is outside (again) BBQing some lunch for us. And I am bored. The house isn’t perfect because I like to stop cleaning right before that point of “no return” where I just … Read More suburban life

dog days

I dont know if you guys know or not yet (because I dont think I’ve told you yet) but we have two dogs and two cats. They are our fur-babies. There, now you know. Anyway, we took the dogs out for a “dog day” which basically means the day is theirs and we do whatever they “want” to do. They like going outside and … Read More dog days

excitement

I am super excited because I was allowed to move my start date for Graduate School to the Summer instead of the Fall so I’ll be starting my program about 3 months early. The only thing we are waiting on now is a registration release and that is because Summer registration is Closed so the School of Business has to get permission from each … Read More excitement