Stress

So remember how I told you that my sister was living with me? Well today, after constantly warning her ever since she moved in, I had to kick her out. And she had the audacity to tell me that her friends were going to come over to my house and help her get her stuff.…

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Joy in Simplicity

My husband is gone for an entire week for military training and just like every time he’s gone, I am a giant ball of anxiety. I never realize just how much he means to me until he’s gone and I’m stuck at home “alone” [I’m not really alone since my sister, 2 dogs, and 3…

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#GoalDigger

Instead of constantly worrying and being disappointed in myself when I don’t accomplish something, I have decided to take that angst and turn it into a “To-Do List” or more like a “Personal Goals” type thing. So the goals for myself are to make myself a stronger/better person. They are tangible goals that should be…

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Rambles

I know, I know I’m going to talk about the controversial topic of sex. Many people are uncomfortable about talking about it but why? Sex is natural. Sex is innate. It’s a God given right. My point is that sex should not be so taboo. Since almost everyone does it. Even the monks and nuns…

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entitled

It’s been about 4 days without drugs or alcohol. I had a brief 1 day relapsed where I took some anxiety medication and had a glass of wine while I took a bubble bath but now I am completely out of my “medication” which makes it easier for me to not use it (because I…

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back out

So I did it. I went three days without abusing medications or alcohol and then I wasn’t okay. My husband is leaving for military training for about a week and I usually am not nervous or afraid for him to go but I am this time around for some reason. I’ve had three high potent…

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not feeling well

I am not feeling well today. I was fine before lunch but then I ate lunch and now I do not feel good. I am wondering if it is because I am coming off of my “drugs” or because I just happen to be ovulating today. My stomach hurts, I feel dizzy and lightheaded and…

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decisions

I have made the conscious decision to stop drinking all alcohol and to stop abusing all medications, even OTC medications. I have been spiraling and spiraling and the worst just keeps making the worst, worse. I used to not have so much anxiety until I started abusing my anxiety medications in an attempt to not…

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suburban life

It’s a typical suburban life today. I cleaned the house, including the basement, did laundry and my husband went outside and mowed/ weed-eated the yard. Our plants are watered and now Josh is outside (again) BBQing some lunch for us. And I am bored. The house isn’t perfect because I like to stop cleaning right…

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dog days

I dont know if you guys know or not yet (because I dont think I’ve told you yet) but we have two dogs and two cats. They are our fur-babies. There, now you know. Anyway, we took the dogs out for a “dog day” which basically means the day is theirs and we do whatever…

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